YAY its friday.
and YAY tomorrow i get to hangout with Red and Sarah. i am super excited.

even tho i am happy its friday, its kinda lame bc ill prob have nothing to do tonight. ill clean and watch tv...but yes its friday night and im gonna sit home alone. i REALLY have no life lol.

i really think today is gonna go super slow tho, just cuz i dont wanna be at work at all. but i only had 4 days of work this weekend cuz Wed i took off. i woke up coughing up blood, which lemme tell you is fun to see first thing in the morning. it turned out to be nothing serious, i just feel like CRAP. im really tired all the time lately, and im not sure what that means. doesnt matter how long/good of a sleep i get, by 2pm at my desk everyday im slipping into a coma. like 2 nights ago i went to bed at like 9 and woke up at 6:30..thats 8.5 hours of sleep, and then one night i went to bed after midnight and was up by 6...and felt the same. i mean fuck do i have to get to bed by 6 so i get 12 hours?!

my roommate left for the weekend for a business trip thing to Nashville. im kinda jealous cuz i wanna go to Nashville. She left me with her 12 year old dog, who is needy and gets lonely way too easily. dont get me wrong he is a VERY well behaved dog, but leave him alone for too long and he goes CRAZY. he rips shit up, eats window blinds, poops on the floor, howls like crazy....i feel bad for him cuz he is just anxious bout being alone. the other night she left to go to a friends house and he didnt stop howling till she came back at 3am....that was an AWESOME night. i hope to fucking god he doesnt howl all weekend, i will kill someone. the weekend is my time to rest.

so nothing else really going on, cept the fact that 3 years after i dumped kevin (for the second time. sorry i just LOVE throwing that out there) a song FINALLY has came about to describe pretty much EXACTLY how i was feeling. a feeling that he never understood. i was just a bitch for dumping him. whatever....enjoy the lyrics.

I Hate This Part

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now 'fore we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies
'Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do this,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

AND yeah. Thank you Pussycat Dolls...who would have thought huh?
OK well back to work b4 my boss gets back. wah wah.